DECISIONS TO MAKE, BUILD, ERECT, REROUTE, CHANGE...

As I stood there, by my L train "Morgan" avenue train station, on a little elevation, stood there watching the new excavation site by my house, I thought to myself: how many women threw in their voice in regards to building this new site? What was it about to be: a new tenants' house, a new grocery store, a museum? The earth is being dug out, excavators are everywhere, and male workmen. What is all that and to what end? Why? For what purpose is this whole noise and dust occuring?
How many women vote or decide on what will happen in the city?
How many are kept manual and sexual slaves through an application of mental and psychic manipulation - read my work "On womben and men", the work I am putting together as a book, you should read it together with my "Growing up" to get a fuller idea of the experience of a woman. So, she, the great she, is kept in a mind state of a primitive pre-iron-age state of fear? They, the women, great shes, are kept in that primitive iron age of fear of unpredictable consequences and horrific punishments, a time period when a man could rid of a woman at will, change the course of her destiny and render all her objections useless. A time when our foremothers did not have a voice nor had a chance. A time when our foremothers have died and were fed to the patriarchal anger and angst. The time where our foresisters have died uselessly, painfully and often wronged, wronged, wronged. If our means of making food and shelter has evolved, our mentality has not. How have we evolved our common consciousness, our understanding, our biology, our minds, our souls, our spirits? None of the works we have done we have reabsorbed on a human level. We have not absorbed the reality of a woman's biology. The truth of her brain.
The reality of her oppression.
The presences of her soul
The greatness of her mind.
The devious and conspiring plan to keep her a slave as men benefit from the fruits of evolution and civilization. We have not passed comparisons between the abuse of women and abuse of racial or national groups. We have not passed the comparisons between the abuse by patricians of plebians, of an abuse by selfish and conceited group, of a hard working and innocent one. A term "woman" is male invented and stands for shoulds and should nots, dos and dont's, wishful thinking, projection and directives. These stories are recorded. These stories are remembered. Why when a term "woman" appears in the story of abuse of power and domination can the score be wiped out clean? Why when any other group of people suffers, the history and the posterity avenge them?
But when women suffer, posterity prefers to forget? To let it go?
Why?
Why things are going down in my neighborhood and I still don't know what or what's up? Why when women ask men something, men make slights or silly jokes or look at one another like what we are asking is inconceivable? Why do they claim to worship god and be good people and at the same time they deny the truth and enslave people capable and practicing reason? Why do they push woman consciousness back into the primordial chaos of un reason, keeping her docile, emotional and obedient but do not themselves wish to experience the same?
Why?