Persecution of truth cannot happen without

small mind and cowardice of your friends, lovers, family and everyone else. Without a consent that ANY life is precious, there is no low actions. Not ANY life is precious, only a worthy, true and properly aligned life that upholds the law, respects the law and works with the universe, is precious. Poor Hava is a hostage, she has no say. She will procreate anything since she has a machine. It does not mean she gives her consent as in the case of a rapped women who can still carry to term and have the abominable "baby" but nonetheless without her will. Sometimes she must birth this attrociousness against her will as her life is null but the life of this "baby" - read monster who comes to destroy nature, earth, others and dominate, destroy and corrupt, is everything.
Again, I am not in consent with this "reality" as it is based on all the wrong factors, improper derivations, wrong calculations, suppression of the right will and upholdance of the wrong one, betrayal, treachery, prostitution, low mindness, outright lies, valuing of a lower over higher and "women" in their pathetic and corrupted state presented as "decision makers" - a big fake facade the true power mongers and string pullers. Patriarchal fucked up and messed up "babies."
No, thanks.
I do not see any truth to this reality. It is only a bunch of tradesmen and merchants who usurped our holy books, imprisoned our masters and enslaved our evolution and there is nothing to agree to as they do not uphold the law of the land, disrespect the law of Earth and Heaven, mate improperly, mate without mind to evolution, persecute innocents and let out criminals to eat population alive.
Respect? The definition please.
Reality? The definition please.
Obligation? The definition, please.
Truth? The definition, please.
Love? The definition, please.
And why do I not have a gun and cannot protect myself in a well organized Militia against the encroachments of the government upon my Constitutionally protected freedom? I never gave up that right. That right remains mine. Therefore, I do not believe in "illegal guns." The action against the public to take their guns away, is illegal. Not the fact that we have them. So, citizens and residents, exercise your Constitutional right and vote traitors out of the office, and do not support the system that is AGAINST OUR CONSTITUTION. Mr. President, there is no such thing as "suspending the Constitution." There is such thing, however, as in doing your best to protect the people exercising their Civil Liberties. Succeed, Mister, you are out of time and place even though I personally find you hot as hell (its the married cowboy thing) I still think you should not be in the government.
Theophanes
Go fuck yourself whoever stands against the word of truth
God is great and there is no greater God than him/her/them/it

"If thee best him, he is honorable"

"Oh Masters of debate that would come to know the perfection of thine art! Engage the dragon. For he is mightily skilled in logic and rhetoric, and all the arts of argument and disputation. But beware: for although his intellect is vast, he has no heart, and you will pay dearly for every mistake in logic that you make, ever unto your life."
The book of Dragonis

My roommate Francis who seems good only in comparison with the

black plague. You see, Francis is quiet an unprincipled person. When he thought he could use the black magick inferior males so often use on females, he did. What exactly do I mean? He has went on an assumption that it is ok to hurt and gain on the count of those who are unaware, and second he has made that assumption not based on facts but on the formula. So, in the first case, his assumption is incorrect, pain is felt by everyone, and in the second case, how could he possibly make an assumption about my abilities if he witnessed the evidence quiet on the contrary? And this is what I have observed: many old males teach their students to lower and harass the woman. Tuval Ariel used to say openly: harass her, it is good for her. Now to lower a human being and to deprive her or him of peace and self choice and will is barely "good for her." This premise is a premise of black magick. Black magick does not go organically and refuses to recognize the evidence to the contrary to its practices. "The truth of the matter does not matter here," often used to say Tuval Ariel when I would point out an outright logical inconsistency and a logical fallacy. He used to escape into labyrinth of words, pretend he did not understand what I was talking about and then outrightly the fact. "What are you talking about?" he would say, and anyone who has ever studied philosophy knows that words provide a perfect escape and a labyrinth. You see, a lie is such that it does not exist lest you give it an expression through words. That is why a sophist must be avoided at all costs because a lie, like a primitive extra terrestrial alien who has invaded the earth can only live in a vacuum. And so, Francis outrightly denied by abilities, my talents, and in the mind, stole my credit by placing unrelated in time and place incidents that would demonstrate him as superior. Instead of thinking the truth and presenting the picture in the right logical sequence, he would sue a sophistic trick and deny the concept of time and space and even individuality! You see, in the world of illusion, on an astral plane everything exists at the same time, but astral is a , not the cause! Surely any student of magick, and most males are trained very early on, would know it! Anyone with a thinking and functioning brain, and Francis's position in UN leads me to believe his brain is functional since he was retained after his three months trial, would ever believe that astral plane was a proper mode of interaction. Only those of inferior accomplishment would use it, to steal accomplishments from higher species, the one who worked hard. The individuality gets erased by commanding an improper gender division. Understand that it is almost impossible to fight on an astral plane since everything happening at the same time and all modes of perception are taken by the perceiving, the higher the being the more shocked it gets by the meanness and low lifeness that is conducted on it by its fellow human beings, and therefore it is stuck in perceiving thus loosing credit and energy. Memory, if not properly stored gets erased and the person becomes confused to even who and what he or she is. It is most, most terrible thing to do to anyone. To steal from a person, knowing fully well that she has accomplished something and then make her believe that she didn't steals not only due and proper credit, steals experience and soul. The person becomes an empty husk of herself. She walks around now on most basic functions.
And so, Fracis would use fear on me, like making my young and developing brain see through to the consequence of my resistance, presenting and fabricating the "facts" in such a way as to make me believe this was an only possible conclusion, scare me even at a subconscious level and then, create lack of resistance and memory leak, moreover, since naturally the one who steals afraid of a just retribution from the one whom he has stolen from, the fear of possible retribution for retribution males a person who is stolen from to erase the memory of incident, thus not only forgetting that he or she was stolen from but forgetting the whole knowledge and experience. The person becomes a zombie, leaving in a vacuum. AMERICAN WAY, TAUGHT BY BLACK MAGICK.
BEWARE
And so, the person must fight by NOT going on the astral plane where she or he will get brain fried but by staying withing the narrow limits of safety until more territory can be won. Asian women begun the madness, doing nothing and appropriating everything. They are guided by a premise "man earns a woman uses." When I was little, I highly resented that concept because of its sheer unfairness. I know that I will come to grief because some lower male will misuse me guided by Asian pussy who would want to prove me ying yang wrong, but I make a decision now so that I will not come to change my mind later. That division into two hateful genders, that absolute and utter disregard for everything human and comradership that has to be between partners, that "kill or be killed" attitude between the two bespeaks a conspiracy of Jehovah, on which I am currently writing in my book "When the Northern star Lights Up." The first part is already published but it is more for manga and sci fi fans, whereas the second part will be much more educational and informational, covering mysteries like binding of angels, the mystery of Lucifer and the cause of gender hatred. I will be publishing it on Lulu.com, under Logos, so keep your minds and eyes open.
So, Francis would use that fear technique, get me to make decisions and come up with ideas, snatch the electrical traces and generally act like a lizard that a human. I have writen on my blog (disregard the other articles) at livejournal, under fireoflogos on the subject of harassment of me during the months of July and August and how Americans have started to devolve and turn into dinosaurs. This is a scientific claim and it can be researched further, with sources like David Icke and he will lead you onto more sources.
So, Francis was fully aware, has made a habit of living off other people's experience and resented the fact that I fought back. He and many primitive American males, inspired by examples of Asian females, search out women from poor countries, take them, feed off their unconscious knowledge and their evolving conscious brains, gain the knowledge into their unconscious and become more and more dinosaur like.
Franics hurt me a lot, just because Donovan did it more and more insiduously just demonstrates his long association with black people, who practice black magick pretending that the word "black" in it justifies the usage of dark arts. The black people are actually not black, this is an improper concept. The race is called Negroid, and there is also a united negro college fund online, so there is nothing wrong with the word "Negro" as it is a proper term of classification. "Nigger" is quiet different from "Negro." And "black" is a color of something, not a person.
Americans, do you, or do you not have a brain?
I suspect you are a bunch of dinosaurs used to an easy living and no hard work, and no, you don't. You act like everybody owes you something and deny the true immigrants their right to an American dream. THAT'S JUST SO UNFAIR.
Then, the males here train of females and call it "American football" and "running a marathon." How shameful, they suck their own sisters dry, and find justification in a most primitive women roles and the claim of Tuval Ariel like people "it is good for her."
Torture, deprivation, abuse, pain, hurt, lack of proper nutrition and education, physical pain, emotional abuse, psychic warfare and spiritual thievery IS NOT GOOD for her. By definition, these things are BAD but do not get into an argument with a sophist because he will win over you through a maze of words.
SOPHIST IS YOUR ENEMY.
AVOID SOPHIST.
NEVER engage the sophist.
Always avoid the sophist.
In your mind even, avoid the sophist.
Moreover, train daily in thinking right and banish your friends if they fail you.
And remember, if you stay low to the ground while keeping mind high, you will survive. They will hunt people for extra credit, to make them labor in vain adn steal their products, but you keep account of everything and count every penny and every action of yours. Claim credit when is due. Do not claim credit where it is not due, avoid false self-aggrandizement and the axe will pass you by. Stay focused. It is warfare for justice and for not letting people to appropriate credit, steal from underneath you and do to you what my roommate did to me, both Francis and the new roommate who hates transsexuals and other people of religious and spiritual expression than her own.
P.S. Francis does have redeeming qualities but what are they if he tried to steal my mind, my memory, my time and my accomplishments from under me, taught black plague to use unfair harassment of psyche as means to create credit for herself? People like Francis have brought black plague upon Europe and us, and call in Russ to clean out their house to banish him back?!
Russ, you are no slave.
You have only one master.
American is not it.
Do not let American wipe his feet on you, contaminate you with black plague and yellow fever and then get your imprisoned child scientists to get the cure, only to kick you out or corrupt your soul by making dirty dealings with you.
Russ, you are a great warrior, arise and do not allow this mockery of yourself and your tribe to continue any further. I never saw myself as a Russ, but it is objectively true that Russ is strong, good and pure. S/he also has a vision and a special ability, a blessed gift of the Gods which the greedy American and black plague want to get.
Russ, arm yourself with discretion and protect yourself, oh Great Norsman of the three worlds. Do not allow your people to die like feeding bottles in the hands of horrific individuals. Russ, fight, do not give up and do not forget.
Keep the record, therefore, and teach it to your descendants so that you will come to know yourself and survive.
Russ, they seek your death.
They have been seeking your death. Because with your death, Europe will fall, and so will the riches of the centuries and all our ancestral knowledge, into the hands of unscrupulous creatures. Russ, do not let the soul go afire and the world be destroyed.
The great bear, the great wolf, arise.
It is enough you have been mocked and dragged your mighty tail sorrily around the menagerie into which you were placed by deceit and through thine own goodness.
Arise Russ, arise, and protect yourself and your sister, younger brother, mother, father and ancestors.
Enough.

Looking for some people to help me out with my stuff.

A serious request: need to bounce some ideas around and someone smart, subservient and devoted, in number of 10, is needed. It is both an open offer and a request to the universe.
Love you all who is fair and true and works hard,
your Theo.

Where to get the latest geeze:

http://fireoflogos.livejournal.com/

Gob dless Aerica

American, be blessed! May many lords shed their blessings upon thy fair soul! My love for you can only be overcome by my desire for unification, I want thee as much as a soul may want a body, and a spirit, its spiritual abode. Oh, America, oh, the beautiful! Dost thou love me, fair lady? Am I a knight enough, fairly beloved? Would thy wed me now? My heart beats faster at the imagining of such rupture! Goodness! If only I was worthy of your love, thy fair brow adorned with jeweles and pearls and silver and gold! Fair maiden, dost thou desire a sweet, or perhaps, a fruit? How may I serve thee, lady, tell me, so that Emin may live and we may procreate and continue and have many babies for the good of many hairs and a lot and like oh mu god! Maiden! Dost thou runnest from me? Such shame! Such unforgivable unpardonable failure on my part! How did I wrong thee? Why, oh why do you turn your fair face away from me in shame? I am shamed.
I stand ashamed.
I will never leave my brow and will toil the land for the rest of my days, in the sweet of my brow.
I lya me down to sleep and cry myself to rest. I loved her! How could she! Such pain. Such deprivation. Such unbelievable cheating!
Oh, beloved, do not turn thy fair face from my ugly and unseemly posture, my ugly and unbecoming shape. Oh. Oh. Oh.
I die, Horatio.
Fair Horatio. I die.

Contemplation

My American roommate Donovan who works for Russel Simmons's connection

Donovan loves his girlfriend. He loves animals. He does not eat them, even! Donovan looooves transsexual boys. Donovan moved his roommates books around, misplaced some and turned around her picture decorations. Donovan did not ask permission for reading his roommates books. Donovan loves to come home and slam the door real hard. His roommate sleeps mere feet away from the door, on the floor, separated from the entrance door by a cardboard wall imitation with a hole for a "window". The window panel is broken, and the separation between the roommate's room and the kitchen, where the entrance door is located, is a ...poster. Donovan then walks right through his roommate's room and jingles the keys real hard, and very loud. Donovan does that in the morning, in the afternoon, and at night. Donovan has learned that his roommate is a student of spirituality, an artist and a writer. Donovan tries to make sudden and sharp yells, get his roommate attention and in many other ways sends negative and envious vibes across the wall. Donovan asked his roommate if his roommate thinks that an experiment can be conducated on small children in order to catch transsexuality early in life....Donovan suggested that the experiments tracing the wayward gene should be done. Donovan asked his roommate of two months, who is a transboy, if his roommate thinks his "condition" is genetic or cultural. Donovan had laughter in his voice and mockery in his words. Donovan later added that he doesn't think much of people being tortured, but animals....Well, that's a different story. Donovan gets extra angry when his roommate is quietly praying or watches some video on spiritual or historical subject. Donovan took a shower this morning, and moved his roommate's body wash to another place. Donovan opened his roommate's drawers, without having placed anything into them. Donovan was slamming drawers and doors, after witnessing his roommate going to sleep late at night. This action of looking for what was not his Donovan did when his roommate was still asleep.
Donovan makes sudden and sharp noises and laughs, suddenly, in the middle of the night. Donovan likes to corner and bully his roommate's, towering over them. Donovan took liberty of comparing a person he spoke with 4 times, to some other person, and based on that comparison forced the roommate to listen to his opinion...about this roommate! Donovan, like most Americans feels entitled. Entitled to others' property. Entitled to their person. Entitled to their time. Entitled to their attention. Entitled to force them to listen when they are not interested, and force them to face rudeness as if it was nothing. Donovan considers himself so important, that he gets upset when he does not get his roommate's attention and his roommate minds her/his business instead.
Few days agao, Donovan was talking ill about another roommate. Donovan has not moved his finger to clean the mess in the house for the past 2 months. Donovan used to persistently say "hello" and "goodbye" to his roommate who was sitting in her/his room for hours, diligently studying. Donovan used to get upset when he would not get a response, unable to recognize a curtain partition as a symbolic separation from his world. Donovan knows no doors, no walls and no rules. Donovan is entitled. Donovan is an American!!
His roommate is a "commi."
His roommate is a "tranny."
His roommate is a spiritual person.
His roommate is to his service and command, well, because he is...Donovan!

The situation

Have you ever seen anything sadder than NYC women? Sad, resigned, cow-like docile and dressed up in accordance to the will of the male, they sadly bob up and down with the waves of life, lifting their cow-like eyes only to pick some food...I have never seen so much docility, cowardice and an outright giving out of the hard earned rights of 1970 and before, as well as after, than on the part of these women. There is nothing weaker, more despicable, more manipulatable and stupider creature, than a current American woman. A proud, strong and evolutionary creature that she once was, she is no more. She has docily run after Asian female fashion, which elevates pussy and animalism above mind and humanity. She now goes by instinct alone, almost. She is the strangest being to be around and is slowly being prepared, with the rise of the homosexuality, for the role of the breeder.
And have you seen the insides of American gay stores?! Holy shit! I did not know you could fit that much inside the instestines! The sizes of these things these boys stick up each other's ass, in a hopeless cause of trying to achieve satisfaction (but they never will, because the satisfaction the power lies with,...vagina!) are a size of my arm! I kid you not, and the thickness is about half a foot. Holy shit! Literally! These people must drown in shit! Now, tell me, do you really believe that this is what some people term "sacred homosexuality"? Or will stupid chicks arise to defend the corrupt and hateful of them breed of modern day herods and degeneretes, crazies and pathetics, simply because they hide behind the term, "gay"? And what is that "gay" after all? It is not a cult, which it has seemed to become. Modern "Gay" movement is actually an excuse for men never to grow up, use and abuse women (watch "Broke back mountain" and the tremendous suffering and abuse these "glorious" males have spend on their poor females!) "Gay" is a modern day term for an inclination of one man to another, simply because the society has so bred women, that a natural inter gender relationship has never been, and could not be, satisfying. These "gay" people produced nothing good, improved no conditions of humanity and they, somehow, made it seem that it is all...female's fault! The sense of righteousness and urgency the stupid female sheds in her attempt to defend a stupid and hateful creature who deems it as a protection seal to call himself a "homosexual" is suprising in the view of facts, reality and education the female has been receiving all these years. It appears that without an actual shift in order, and a conscious and loving attention to the female children, the nastiness of the world will not be rectified.
And, one more point. Have you read the book of Enoch? Please do. There is not one more obnoxious piece of information that has existed so far! In there, poor good angels who have pitied poor women and came to rescue them from the brutes men were, and taught them with respect and love, as is due from one high kind to another, GET PUNISHED and by whom?! By dear-old-God! He states his reason: men are lower creatures than angels, therefore, they need wives (female representation of angels on Earth) so that something may be transmitted to them! What! Here is the exact quote from the translation of Richard Laurence, London, 1883:
"Therefore have I given to them wives, that they might cohabit with them; that sons might be born of them; and that this might be transacted upon earth."
So, dear-old-God, you have given innocent, pure children, innocent babes to this killing, raping and drawing blood monster? And then you have a Chutzpah to turn around and accuse the angels in causing disorder and spilling of blood on Earth?! As if your favorite ugly-nasty murdering, rapping and destroying creature, "son of man" has not done so before these angels, who have taught KNOWLEDGE. Knowledge, God, cannot be corrupting. It is your frigging seed that is corrupted. And, moreover, these bastards cannot handle KNOWLEDGE without going bad, on top of that,you gave them innocent and pure beings to kill, mureder, raper and torture, and when someone had pity on them and appreciated them, what did you do? Did you turn aroun and beheld your pet in his bloody glory, or did you smite those who would make you see the truth? Like a terrible and stupid parent, like a corrupt judge, you have smitten those who saw the truth! You, you are not God, you are a monster. You are unkind, unjust, unfair. You are an usurper. Your word has no power. Your will is null. And your stupidity is overwhelming. Your cruelty is abhorent. You are dumb, selfish and crazy disgusting old man who just would not die.
YOU ARE NOT GOD OF MINE.
YOU ARE A MONSTER
I SIDE WITH THE REBELS, if you can call THAT - an act of truth, justice, and kindness, a "rebellion." Fuck you, fuck your haven, and fuck all your fucking after life. Go fucking die somewhere, I don't need you anymore you lying, cheating, favoring of evil and bad motherfucker.
You are a mockery of God.
You are evil.
You are an impostor and seek adoration seeker. Just listen to this "God", does he not sound like your Chelsea gay boy: all nations shall pay me divine honours, and bless me; and all shall adore me. Chapter 11, part 26.
That's God? Maybe in the world of patriarchal sickness and his sick mythology, that's no God. Sorry, simple logic commands me to see this all as a stupidity and farce. Or, if he is real, he is just a spoiled little alien who's mommy and daddy should be coming after him and punishing him for all eternity. He is also a misogynist and should go and incarnate as a woman and live as a "wife" of man, and then "transmit" this mysterious stuff he is hinting at, himself, then know what his pet like.
FUCK YOU FUCKING GOD YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE HOPE YOU DIE HOPE YOU DIE DIE DIE
DIE PAINFULLY, AFTER HAVING LIVED NUMEROUS INCARNATIONS AS A WIFE OF THIS FUCKING PETM THIS FUCKING UGLY AND ANTI-EVOLUTION OFFSPIRNG, THE MAN.
FUCK YOU, FUCK YOUR CREATION, I AM FUCKING LEAVING, FUCK EACH OTHER WITHOUT ME
DIE GOD, DIE GOD, DIE GOD, DIE
DIE YOUR SICK AND CRAZY SICKNESS WITH YOU, YOU CRAZY ALIEN.
DIE ALREADY YOU FRIGGING "JEHOVAH" FUCKING ANGLRY BEARDED NASTRY CRUEL HEARTLESS AND LACKING IN COMPASSIONM, MERCY AND REASON, GOD.
YOU ARE DEAD TO ME.
YOU DIED THE MOMENT I READ THE BOOK WHICH SAID: THANK YOU GOD, FOR NOT MAKING ME INTO A WOMAN.
WELL, I AM GONE, YOU ARE NOT WITHOUT ME.
AND DON'T COME BACK AFTER ME, I AIN'T COMING BACK, FUCKING GOD.
GO EAT APPLES WITH YOUR ADAM, YOU CAN KEEP THE SNAKE TOO.
I DON'T NEED ANY OF YOU.
TAKE YOUR LIFE.
TAKE YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS.
TAKE YOUR INCARNATION.
GO FUCK YOURSELF WITH THEM.
YOU SHIT, YOU GREEDY LUSTY DISGUSTING BLOOD THIRSTY, FEMALE GENOCIDAL BASTARD.

Linking

I am linking this baby with another baby on aol site. There will be interesting facts and articles that could enhance the point of this journal.
The current reading is about a child who ruins an intricate mandala by Tibetan monks. My name for this article is: an allegory to an American Brute destroying world culture. Where are the wayward parents?!
Here is the link to the aol journal, where you can find a link to the article.
So, it is a link, then, a link within it.
So, it is a link within a link.
http://journals.aol.com/fireoflogos1/Interesting-facts/;jsessionid=7C200DA2A9C90EB187D6D52B726F50AA

What Americans really are like

Remove the glory of atomic weapon. Look underneath the bravado. Peep under the profestation of equality, freedom and brotherhood. Civil strife, child abuse, manipulation of developing and growing woman-kind, outright exploitation of immigrants and students, slow, almost ritualistic genocide of anyone who is connected to spiritual or intellectual world. On top of that, don't forget to fork over the crust of bright, toothy and pink cheeked-corn-fed Wester girl plump and happy face, or a current lizard looking, bony, toothy still and gaping'n glaring "All American Gal", and see the monthly mold and maggots busting out of this "land of "life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness"."
Do you know what's Americans' term for people who are interested in spiritual life or a life of awareness? Hippy. And what is American's name for people who are interested in learning, and perhaps even dedicating their lives to studies? Nerds. And what about people who are interested in philosophy? Philosopher. But said with a puffing of the lips, an exaggerated accent over the "lo" and a strong exhale upon completing of the pronouncement.
Americans are not educated at all. The so-called "universities" are places of trade. They are places where one goes to acquire a trade. Almost all and any attempt to choose a path that could ensure a dedication of life to arts, sciences, philosophy or spiritual tradition, is mocked. People are expected to be working only, saving, buying houses, marrying and sending the kids off to college. Almost the entire country, expected to do just that! And an active action is taken to discourage people from growing, evolving, developing! Do you know how the system is maintained? Through women abuse. Men use psychological techniques to scare women and make them into hysterics, so that they have no time to do anything else but obey. They get punished, like dogs, they get non-physically beaten, tortured, mutilated - psychologically, spiritually and mentally. They are crippled, forced into a false mold, told lies, denied in their attempts, stolen from, appropriated credit. American males will even seem it ok to fight with a little, developing girl!
And how do Americans treat anyone different from them? With an abhorent cruelty, covered up with sweetened sugar-candied appearance of normalcy. They are trained well with almost a CIA power psychologicall weaponry and they bring it into a peaceful town, and harass people in this town. Americans have opened up they assylums and now prisons too. The peaceful civilian population has been mixing with schizophrenics for the past twenty or so years, and for the past few years, with hard core criminals. Americans now are opening their jails and letting out the criminals to roam around the towns, harassing helpless women, students, artists and spiritual students and philosophy students! It came to a point that this criminal mentality of the lowest class hard core criminals is now running the country. In their greed, American government went against its duty and has completely fed off and abandoned the helpless and trusting civilian population. Do you know what maintains this mess in semi-order? Simple. Americans have enough bread, and, they have put their women to work. Women, in their cowardice and a simple function of rationalization - a variation on "he really did not mean that" are now explaining all the governmental evils away, in a vain hope to find some "hidden and secret" meaning behind these attrociousness. It is simple: without education and evolutionary process and period of time, a woman will not oppose a man. She is weaker, more abused, less educated. Their men have been deprived of all virtues and imbued with every vice. Among them, the lust being the leeding one. The imported females from Asia, mostly, dress, act and portray all levels of lust possible. American males are either made sinful, and therefore weak, untaught - therefore, weak minded. Trained to fear pain - therefore, unable to oppose a greater strength. Alongside with that, a cowardly semblance of "Asian wisdom" is being floated around: passivity is strength! On top of that, the knowledge of the Constituion has been slowly erased out of the minds of the people, and the people's weapons - taken away. Now Americans are akin to a home owner who is a captive in his own house, in boxers alone, without his gun, his dog or his telephone.
The chance at evolution people could have had, is being erased and fed to the hungry monsters, daily. That chance that comes from proper nutrition - not cheap and abundant shit food, proper education - not brainwashing and trade training, and good, wholesome and honest life, is none. Artists, spiritual students, philosophers, skillful folk, all are a life of a city. America - has none.
And on top of that, their WOMEN are being manipulated and taken advantage of as early as 5 years old! Look at the example of a concept of "beauty pageant" applied to children, and look at the consequence of Jon Benet Ramsey. WHAT DOES A FIVE YEAR OLD GIRL HAS TO DO WITH BEAUTY?
People struggle to pay the bills and learn some basic skills, because murderous father Cronoses are being unleashed upon their own children, preventing those from obtaining knowledge and skills necessary to get ahead in the world. Americans are digging out century old hates, prejudices, and complexes, only to....make money. They turn child against parent, and parent against child. The children, without education, roam the world, feeding of spiritual, mental, and psychological crap. On top of that, these children are attempting (some of them, at least) to learn some basic trade or skills, and meanwhile, the potential of the world, the developing girl-child, is being brutally taken advantage of by older, corrupted and horrific males.
It is so bad in here, so bad, and so pervasive, that is it hard to describe.
And to find oneself, awakening to life, having survived great abuse, deprivation, scare and pain, without too many skills and in the power of the evil ones, is very scary. Please, someone, help those who are not like these usurping and lying and cheating "Americans", help us.
We are so beaten, we are unable to feel the pain.
We are so turned against one another, we are unable to cooperate.
We are so made to fear one another, we are unable to trust.
We are so fed lies, we are unable to believe.
We are so mocked and taught defeat, we are unable to hope.
We are so taught wrongly, we are unable to orient ourselves in the world.
We are so schelleped around and swooshed in the primoridial sea of undifferentiation, we are unable to tell left from right, and therefore, to navigate.
We are so taught relativity, we are unable to confirm we are on firm ground, even when we are.
AND THE SOLUTION THEY USE, IS THAT THEY ABUSE US. THEY ABUSE WOMEN, THEY ABUSE STUDENTS, THEY ABUSE ARTISTS, THEY ABUSE SPIRITUAL STUDENTS.

About me

I am a transsexual natural. A male who has a body that is female and is both, neither and either or.
I write, paint, act life, love and live.
I hate duplicity, deceit and taking advantage off.
I hate the binary model employed in the current states, it is an outlived and wrong structure that makes people sick. It is my hope that you will come to understand that after reading the work I have painstakingly collected and perfected, on this blog.
I write on the subject of gender constructs, men and women, third gendered, in-betweeners, two spiritered. I cover relationships, travails and trials in a form of essays, reflections, short stories, and plays. Life is ultimately tragic. All the trappings of "fun and good time" are contrived and artificial. It could not be otherwise: truly having one half of the world subjected to another in an abject and degrading slavery, will produce no happiness.
I paint - abstract. Geometry fascinates me, mathematics fascinates me, proportion faschinates me, logic fascinates me, philosophy is my true lover, second after The Great Spirit.
I love many things, other transbois, my father, my friend, the people whom I hope to help with my work. Anime, photography, games, opportunities for people who have the same body as me, and evolution.
Good luck to you on your journey, and see you around!

AS I..

...As you drove in your cars, we dragged our harassed, crippled feet on the scorching concrete.
As you spread out our wings, the ones you stole from under us, we crawled in birthing pains on earthy floor.
As you lifted one veil of mystery after another to know and control the Divine, we died year after year, month after month, milenium after milenium, from malnutrition, sutti, exile, stoning, twentieth pregnancy, broken bones, deep internal bruising and bleeding, cracked skull, ripped out eyes.
As you conquered boundary after boundary of mountains, rivers, then cities, then markets, then Wall Street, then restaurant business, then privately owned shops, we were left to die, bad mouthed and ousted of positions, for wearing a wrong cut of skirt and a wrong color of a blouse.
As you raised your son to the sun and prided yourself in him, the mother of this child was working her twentieth hour at a labor no one came to see nor praise nor reward. Her littler daugheter, your dauther, played by her feet, at age to learn the mathematics and sciences and logic, yet destined to marry at her 14. She has one more year left, let her play, Father, let her play.
As you came in counting your money, spreading a fan of it before my face, I said she, your daughter, needs new notebook, you said Maria does not even need a new dress.
As you left me to "scout out the world" they came and rapped me, I lost count of which child was yours, which ones was theirs, all were children, all I suckled at my breast, all loved me, and the sons whom I did not know to separate, rose to defend me.
As you left me to be alone with children and said it was my duty to raise them, when you returned, you demanded to know "where your children were and if they grew to be a help." I never saw my children...your children again..I remained in the house with their cloth and with my memories.
As you bonded with others and praised the glory of friendship, I, your companion of twenty five years, was forced to watchy you with her. She was young and she was my daughter's age, she was teasing me and wanted me to cry. I did not hate her, for I knew the truth. But, do not tell me about friendship.
As you raised yourself on the moutain and beheld God, you came back to tell me God was Divine, and great.
As you cried yourself to sleep at night, after loosing a battle, you survived the wound. You told me then God was kind.
As you won the case in court and came out a winner, you came back to tell me God was just.
As you created that mathematical eqution, conceived of that architectural plan and designed a new formula for a morep owerful weapon, you told me God was visionary.
As I listened to you about how many things this "God" was, I wanted to tell you that I met him too. When our child was sick and on his death bed, I prayed all night and reared him for months. When I pressed my head to his little chest to listen to his breath, I thought it stopped, mine stopped then too. I fainted. When I opened my eyes, he was on his knees beside me, giving me a glass of water. I wanted to tell you that when you left me to "go hunting" and went out to her instead, I went to the woods to gather berries for our dessert, and a bear came upon me. I though then that I would never see you again, but the bear was not careful, the smell of blood was too powerful for him, he walked into a trap. I wanted to tell you that when you lost your bet and we have mortgaged our house, I sneaked out in the night when you were deeply asleep from booze and hashish, and I went to the creditor's house, and I begged him for the sake of my young ones, and you, who was a fool, but a good father and a good husband, to give us time. Our son was almost sixteen and he could take the job in the city. I cried all night and begged, adn crawled after the man on my stomach, when he finally told me to get up, and wash up in the bathroom, and go home and sleep and not think these thoughts. He said he will give us as much time as we needed, and the young one could take an extra year to get a trade - and this way he will get a better job too. I never told you. You never knew. But the creditor said to you your house was a loosing deal to him, you best keep your own problems and not get him involved. I wanted to tell you that when Marry got home from that party and was pale, not everything was "ok." She was raped that night but was too afraid to tell you. She got pregnant that night, but we were afraid to tell you. I wanted to tell you that when I operated on my daughter, and spread her legs to end her misery and the misery of her shame, I never told you. I wanted to tell you, that when my daughter was bleeding in my hands, I vowed to God my life if only she came out. She heeled and she found a man who cherished her and never brought up her shame. I wanted to tell you that I knew God too, and he was all these things you said he was, but you said to me then: what can a woman know about God.
As you developed new projects and ideas, you said it was time I worked in the city. When I worked in the city I was very scared and by myself. I did not know why people said or did things, but I brought the money home so you could put it to a new car, new house, new gun, new casion game, new booze and new girl.
As you made babies outside home, you tole me not to be jealous. One day you brought home your "associate". Your "associate" and you were kissing in the moonlight, Gregory saw you. The next day your buddies were over and you though I was asleep. You told them about your "bravery" and they praised you. One of them told you that "you still need to be careful". I have heard you and them and him. I was not asleep.
As you stroke my daughter down and told her she was a whore, I found her dead the next morning, hung from the ceiling. My daughter, your daughter, is in hell now.
As you told our daughter gilrs were not good in math, she in secret studied mathematics and designed theories of chemical mulitplication. When you have found the notes she hid under her maiden bed, you tore them into pieces, slapped her on her face adn told her to "get dressed up to go see Frank." My daughter was married that very year to a man. She now sits at home and cooks. We talk about a proportion of salt to the amount of water in a bowl...
As my daughter kept giving birth, she found time to study at night when he was asleep. She has finished the mathematical course all by herself, she has found girlfriends to discuss it with. She has taught it to her daughter, her daughter is now on a scholarship in this big college some title of a great lord ...duke, that's it, Duke University. She came to see me and said: grandma, one day, you will live forever. I started laughing and said I would be happy to have medical care and my own little garden.
As my husband swore his love to me until the end of our earth days, before the priest, he filed a divorce case against me because a younger and prettier woman has entered his life. When I asked about God he said to me not to be contentious and enjoy the money I was getting.
As my husband sent me back to my parents' house because I was "not a good wife", my fathr beat my father to death.
As I was left to tend the household, my father too, has killed himself. I was left alone,without a brother or a chidl or a husband or a parent. First, they came and claimed the house. Then, they came and claimed my body. Then, they came and claimed my children. Then, they came and claimed my life.
As I was left alone without a husband or a father or a child, I learnt a trade. I learnt that trade well and so good, no one ever dared to strike me again. I was dressed pretty and carried around. Great Kings came to me and sought my favor. As I please the Kings, their wives were crying in the night, alone, on the cold wedding beds.
A I was left without you, I have learnt to saw, to weave, to knit, to cook, to clean, to make smiles, to make orgasms, to mke jokes, and I have survived. I did not know how to read or write, but I knew how to use my mouth in a thousand and one of other ways.
As I was left alone, by myself, my misery increased. Times have changed. I have changed. Now I spoke and knew how to read and write - I spoke you you as you flew by in your space shuttle. You stopped by, laughed and pettied me on the head: child, you said, go home to your parents, you said. I wanted to tell you they were dead but you were already gone. He was next to you, laughing.
As I was left alone, by myself, I read all about your God and things he has done. He is a great God and praise must be given to him. As I read on commandments he has issued for you, I have realized he did care for me, after all. He commanded you to take care of your wife and kids. I also found that your God was not the only God. That other men had other Gods. Their God was different.
Ad I was left alone to mend your socks, you came in drunk and raped me! When I cried from pain, you said I was your wife and should not complain! But I did not want to make love then! I was thinking about God and my home work when you came and rapped me...
As I sat on the stoop, all alone, I have thought about the stars. You came out and told me to "get in immediately." When I asked to be out for some more, you hit me across the face and said "not to argue with your lord and master." As my lord and master was reading his books that night, I hid in the dark, the broken bone of my nose, for fear he will see me and strike me for my ugliness.

A LOGICAL INCONSISTENCY

Women and men make a baby.
Half genes from here, half genes from there.
The child born is a combination of both.
Men abuse, hurt, hit, starve and deprive a mother to be of things she needs.
Mother to be is a carried of half of the genes, carrier of the mitochondria and a carrier and feeder. She passes her genes, her memories, and her knowledge, to the child. She suckels the child with her blood that is full of fear and pain. She suckels the child with her milk,that is full of fear and pain. The child grows up on fear and pain, carrying half (!) of the genes that are emeciated, stupid and deficient. This child goes on to procreate with another carrier of half of the genes and a mitochondria, a child that has been an inheritor of the weakened genes. The two weakened gene pools unit to produce...a third weaker yet and sicker yet gene pool! This gene pool is suckled and fed and nurtured by pain, fear, abuse and hate. It grows and goes on..and so on and so forth.
EVER WONDERED why THE HUMAN RACE IS sooooo FUCKED UP?
Well, wonder no longer!

PATRIARCHY AND ITS EVIL OFFSPRING

Minority exploitation and immigrant abuse
-MINORITIES EXPLOITING INNOCENT WHITE PEOPLE.
-YOUNG INNOCENT OUT OF LUCK IMMIGRANTS ARE THEIR TARGETS
THESE INNOCENT IMMIGRANT YOUNG PEOPLE ESPECIALLY THE WHITE ONES ARE MANIPULATED PSYCHOLOGICALLY AND FORCED TO COMPLY AGAINST THEIR WILL WITH OPINIONS AND THOUGHTS THEY DO NOT HOLD
How does patriarchy succeed in doing this?
Very easy. First, it makes harassment of any people ok. As you already know, patriarchy is highly proficient in this. It pushes the boundaries of tolerance of human decency and personal space. Patriarchy does that through mocking people that would retain their independence and freedom of thought and action and would mind their business. Patriarchy also employs fear, great fear to control people who have done nothing evil but dared to upholed their ground and speak up their minds. Patriarchy has no respect for human beings and human soul. Patriarchy also employs allies by paying those from the circles of the people it would like to control, off. Like during Nazi Germany time, Nazis employed Jews to control Jews. To police Jews. And patriarchy does not shy away from hiring lover against lover, friend against friend and father against daughter.
Second, after the harassment of people has been made ok, patriarchy deconstructs the human being and makes her or him flat and one dimensional resource. Patriarchy presents people as budget sheet with balances and excesses. The faults and the merits of people are laid out on the sheet of their person as if people were nothing more than a resource to patriarchy, a one dimensional projection. Patriarchy steals and invades the inner world of the people and controls them through imposing a system of fear and supervision. Patriarchy is close to Nazism. God forbid a person has one fault, the patriarchy will longe onto that fault and suck the person's blood out like a vampire. Patriarchy is evil insect with a long nose and a blood-sucking mechanism perfected to the nth degree. Through the usage of the method of balance sheet method, patriarchy ensures that everyone is seen through the light of their faults. So, if God forbid some poor immigrant is having what they call "immigration problem" (an artificial designed by the govenment situation, having nothing to do with the original intent of the Founding Fathers and our holy and sacred document, The Constitution of the United States of America) that poor immigrant will always and only be seen through the light of that contrived problem. Meaning, everything and anything the person says or does will now be seen as an attempt to "cover up" for that "inadequacy." The fact that person can have thousands of expressions and needs and desires and nuinances of character are all erased under the patriarchy.
Patriarchy scares people into submission and those who want something learn that this is the way to get what they want by grabbing people by the balls and holding them down. People. By the balls. Or by the ovums. This is wrong. Innocent people. always innocent people have to pay the way of the interests groups. America is not an interest group but a Constitutional Democracy where people live together in peace and work towards prosperity. After all, this is what King George exactly did not want us to have and demanded us to house soldiery and pay taxes without being represented in the government, and this is called "taxation without representation."
So, another price that the world pays because of the evil patriarchal practices is art, music, literature, philosophy and anything and everything that has nothing to do with warfare. Patriarchy loves the Spartalike state where we all are breeders and workers, and there are no works of art, delicacies, gentleness, love, joy, friendship, true connection, real philosophy, and evolution. Evolution goes against patriarchy becuase evolution means no control. And patriarchy loves control.
With a Sparta -ike war stupid feudalistic "Samurai" state, there is no nothing new. Everything already patriarchy has seen and assumes to know the minds and hearts of the people while even God does not know and admits it because human kind is free to choose and be self-proclaimed.
My Mexican friends, the immigrants, live in such a fear that a passing of a car with head lights on makes them think of police. Police loves to drive around and to make annoying sounds with the siren, driving everyone who is an immigrant into a frenzy and fear. I don't believe cattling and intimidating is a function of the police. Protecting, helping and serving, is.
The immigrants are harassed in the following manner: anything that has "taxes" in it or "go home" makes people jump. What I don't understand is how the "liberal" American people who profess to be so helpful and nice, at the same time are all so happy when people make a mistake of living their lives. It is as if they wanted to own America and not keep it open for immigrants. They catch people on small, insignificant thing like their artificially-made-diffucult status and manipulate this to prevent people from developing and claiming their human and God given heritage.Why does not police act like police? Why do people use September 11th to manipulate and harass other people? These people who catch others on an insiginificance and then manipulate it to prevent people from doing their developement are leeches and blood drinkers of the people. They have no merit of their own but steal the merit of other people.
One day I went to my local computer store in my Spanish neighborhood to print something. The CD would not open in the file and I had to ask the assitant for help. After switching me to another computer she finally took my CD and took it to her station. There she sent me the form from her e-mail because she could open the disk at her station. After having received the form I attempted to open it but to no avail. Finally the form opened and it was garbled language. The form was saved under a "taxes of a person X". I asked her why my thing was saved as that and she explained that it was saved under this name. After having experienced the problem with the language I requested she take the disk to her station and open it there. She did. She then asked me what form I wanted. I stared at her with not understanding: a form? I had no forms I only had a page of my essay. Form? I wasn't sure other things were not saved up on that CD so I went along with her. I thought since I did not buy the CD because I am poor but my friend gave it to me, perhaps there were some things saved there besides the one I have saved. So, I nodded and said she should choose one file to print: she said to me that there were many different files to print. I was intrigued and tired and said "print one." She kept going about some taxes and then when she finally brought me the form it was a tax form. She proudly handed it to me saying that this is what she had. The form confused me. It appeared that the woman thought because I was white and dressed decently that I was from immigration and was checking up on her, so she printed me the form of her taxes, with her social security number and all. I was so shocked and speehless, I was ready to cry. Here I was, striving as an immigrant too and causing fear in people that I did not want to hurt and would not even, and of whom in some way, I was one. How terrible the sin of the patriarchy, how horrible is their way of scarying people into dumbness, so much fear, so much that people are simply unable to think straight and read reality straight. People live under the sword of fear. They are not communicating with one another but are communicating through signs and hunches and feelings and unimportant to the real and true communication things. As a result their capacity for thought diminishes, their reality perception diminshes and on these people becoming foreground untalented and devious demonic boyz and their crew (-whose sense of entitlement to things can be summarized 7 words: because I was born in this country) rise up and steal the little bread that we have.

The abhorent cruelty of male

...he has manufactured a weak and dependent woman, for centuries, and now when he got bored of his Barbie doll, he threw her out, without marriage, without skills, with weakened body and mind, to raise her children by herself, and get by, somehow. ...The Grand Male is manufacturing an artificial womb somewhere in his laboratories, where he manufactured a first aritificial female.
Well, here is what I say to you, prick:
God given power to know and improve was not given to you to torture innocent female people and squeeze them into artificial boundaries that has nothing to do with their well being and lives. He thinks only of himself and if he could kill her off, completely, he would. When I hear "I love her" I think to myself: what if she takes off her skirt, stops shaving, applies not make up and speaks up her mind, for once, will you still love her? You buy things you think she will need - roses, chocolates, electirc appliances. Who told you she likes them? Your patriarchy told you? Why don't you ask her? Why don't you help to undo the order that is oppressive and false for the one you claim to be your "beloved"? Why do you keep oppressing her? Why do you support electolysis? Why do you support hair salons? Why do you support make-up? Why do you support rib removal and silicone? Why do you support lack of sports and weakened logic and mind? Do you love a lap dog? Are you sick? Do you love a slave? Are you ill?

HOW MALE LEGITAMIZES ABUSE OF FEMALE

"She is a nerve case"
"She is nuts"
"She always blows it out of proprtion"
"She takes it waay too seriously"
"She can never take it easy"
"She is stupid"
"She is worthless"
While a male attacks female psyche through a combination of techniques such as: signs of disrespect, making of sharp noises, persistent and maddening whispers, words that are known to be upsetting to her, all that undermines her psyche. Psychology will tell you what happens when a psyche is weakened: break downs, aging, mental fatigue, unclear thinking, mental retardation, and even a physical breaking down of the tissue! All this is a fact and long known in psychology. Yet males chooses to do it to a female. They then cover up their crime by reducing her natural reaction of rage to their actions, by posing HER as the cuprit: she is hysterical! She is the one who is a problem! Society nods: in a society women hate women and men hate women, so the one woman that stands out will get it hard. Patriarchy knows it and relies on it widely. Their biggest "secret" weapon is to call female names that sound plausible. Yet are not true. This throws a woman into frenzy whose name she knows not. The likening is close, very similar, yet it is not her. And she cannot know it and neither can she prove that to anyone. She loose vital life force and years, fighting this way with herself, and with others, while male grows in fat and audacity. The gist of patriarchal name calling game is in its logical falaciousness. Meaning, to call a female names that sound like they are a slaughter of character, abuse of personhood are from a category of ad hominem arguments. All other logical fallacies and outright lies that hide behid raw power, are used as well. The nastier the accusation on a woman, the more irrational and hateful the remark, the more it will be believed. Remember, a woman has almost no recourse to self defending action: society is structured and permeated with male traps and mazes. Women that fight end up dead; instead of real female people come patriarchal constructs pf whore-mother-daugher, and sometimes father's daughter, and patriarchy continues to devolve human genome, kill off human potential and torture and murder human beings. The acceptance of a dissmisive statement on a part of a woman about another woman is always a disservice and a fratricide.
Notice, in our language all terms of significance are male.

Question: with so many means, why doesn't patriarchy invest its money into training and teaching women? Now that we have prosperity, why not return the debt and grow and cherish your female child?
Answer: patriarchy is non-human, a devolved genetic pool of murderous, cannibalistic, vampiristic entities that come to destroy themselves. They are litterally, in hate of a woman and if women do not wake up and protest the name calling, false accusations, double standars, dress code (Are they still kids...), abuse, murder, role definition and talking down to, they will all perish. The male slavery is pervasive and permeating and goes far into the core of a human heart. Truly, deconstructing ourselves out of the patriarchal constructs leads us by the unravelling thread of our mummification gowns (where we were mummified alive by the patriarchy!) into the depth of the maze, the "heart of darkness" of patriarchal genocidal and fraticidal intent.

Making connections

Is there a connection between a politics of fear and repression that was excercised towards women and their horrific economic condition today?
Let's see.
What does one need to do well economically? First of all, I assume everyone does want to do well economically, don't they? If you are the person who does not care to do well economically, then this article is not for you.
For those who are interested in doing well economically, what does one need?
To do well economically, one must either have the skills or the knowledge that would creaste or have a demand. And women, do they have any or all of these necessary components? Many skills are unavailable to women as they are not trained properly and are not encouraged to improve on them. Skills is something that develops and requires setting, introduction, proper training, and a place to learn and practice. Skills also can be developed inaturally, if conditions are favorable, n accordance to the person's mind and build. And women were allowed to read and write only a few centuries ago in the West, and still are not allowed in many countries in the world. Women were not able to learn many things and to hold many different types of jobs that could help to bring more money or to evolve more versatile skills. And how about all the centuries during which men developed a political acumen, physical strength, organizational skills, personal skills, interpersonal skills? While men were doing these fun things, women were confined within four walls to develop the power of gossip and sevility, serving as mothers, wives, servants and slaves. Men today have no shame to recognize this inherent by now inequality and willingly compete with just learning how to crawl women, and oust them at even safety-net professions such as cooking, hair making, make up. Men have no shame to marginalize women anywhere, anytime and anyplace and appropriate both the resources and the credit that goes with that act of appropriation. Women still and always literally get scraps. How can they compete in unfair conditions, with improper training and weapons, ennervated and unaware? Try to put people in the equivalent to what I have described conditions, on the battle field.
Can the fact of so many centuries of learning be overlooked? Can the fact of so many skills men have acquired over time, and have then now almost genetically, be overlooked? How do you think evolution occurs? Over time, repetitious acts that a body and mind learn, CAN be passed onto the progeny. Men have repeated a wider variety of nourishing to mind, body, spirit and soul acts, over a prolonged period of time. Women have not. And if women are non-participants in anything and men participants in everything, men's genetics will be better by now, and correspondigly, a male offspring better too. Whereas a woman finds herself in a horrible condition. She is now facing a world which goes at a tremendous speed - men's centuries of preparation allow it for such a speed, whereas for a woman it is an undoing of her person and The Evolution as such. Great prosperity is for them, for men. Do they use this prosperity to improve economic conditions of women who did so much work for free for so long, raising these people, for so long? No. They buy a Porche and seduce young girls, ruining many lives because of the money they took away from where it could be, given to provide for education for women, and also by keeping the young girl they seduce from learning and acquiring character. Basically, women right now are barely scrapping, while men shamelessly spend money on new cars, new cloth, new buildings. It is as if their human family does not matter. It is as if they do not wish to return the debt they owed us. And on top of that, women's condition is pretended away by forcing them to be at a conscious level of Mercedes owners. Meaning, although there is neither the money nor the status that women have, they are forced, through a combined technique of harassment and false promise of relief, and false associtation with the imagery, to feel like it was they who lived in the glamorous world. In other words, VR. Virtual Reality. Here is precise mechanism of how a male accomplishes that. A woman is harassed psychologically and psychically. When that happens, she learns not to focus on her work but on her environment instead, to defend herself. Sharp noises and unexpected yells are very bad for the psyche.
When they happen, the psyche mobilizes and is constantly prepared for a fight or flight response.
This means that a woman is constantly in a state of great fear.
That fear is unconscious, because not many connect the man's actions to man's intent and conclude the history. So, women are constantly prepared to meet the psychic offence by being aware. That makes them aware of the reality at a level where the offence happens and pay attention to the attacker. That is how a boy who has no prominence achieves attention and uses woman's attention directed towards a defence against the attack, to grow himself in importance. Once he creates a condition in the psyche where a woman is aware, he then proceeds to act slow and deliberately, to write into woman's consciousness his image. The woman has no choice but to observe that and to be forced to pay attention to the monster who abuses her. He uses all her attention energy and makes himself into something. Then, he discards her and she is like a squeezed orange by that time. He litterally sucked her dry.
Economic poverty and mental dullness of women are a result of past denial of means of improvement and the present denial of the means of accomodation. Women need time, care, education, activities. Women grew men, it is time to return the favor and be the parents you've never been and the nurses to the ones you've abused and drained.
It is time for reparations.

HOW AMERICANS GET AWAY WITH DOING OBVIOUS WRONGS

by presenting them from their perspective. When the boyz club harasses women it claims it isgood for the women, well, because it is good for them! When boyz decide to dress a woman up and make her act like a trained monkey, they claim she likes it because they like it. When boyz through a combination of good cop, bad cop and other aforementioned tricks force a woman to comply with their desires making her to gforget the past abuses and hurt, they claim she reallyu shopuld have ended up doing what they wanted her to do and to date a guy they wanted her to date. It is as if the male's desire has been sanctified by the patriarchy at the expanse of life, life force and existence of a woman. He feels entitled to harass her even when he is on vacation and rooms with her and she is studying and living her life, he plays a game to get into her pants. Shame on you, Patrick.

HOW PATRIARCHY GROWS THEIR FEMALE CHILDREN

like weed.... &
Q: DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOUR GIRL CHILD IS?
A: SOMEWHERE OVER THERE ...
&...and how boyz grow up to suck women's blood out under the pretext of doing it unconsciously, or under a pretext of "not doing nothing wrong." Not proven - not caught, not happening, right? Right.
But there are proofs that they are fully aware and simply employ a psychological technique to get women to get their job done for them. Boys like to pretend the innocence while heavily programming reality to be full of clues that trigger woman's preprogrammed unconscious to react in a certain way to these clues. The way a woman should react is what's important here, and boyz do everything possible and impossible to achieve that goal. First, the goal is defined. Second, the nature of a woman is known. Or created. Third, the reality is programmed to produce certain effects: nature of a woman+goal+adjustment to setting and time=desired reality. Most importantly is to keep a woman so harassed, so abused, that she will nto have a chance to choose any other option from the one that has been programmed into her. The job of harassment is assigned to each and every single male, almost. Women are harassed since the time of their birth to the time of their adulthood, they are constantly treated horribly, treated like slaves. Their mentality is well prepared for participation in a slave reality that they were conditioned for since little children. The harassment cards are dealt and traded among men: if the Black power is on the rise, then any black guy, for example, could get away with harrassing a white woman's psyche. It is irrelevant that he may be from Africa and she, not from America. The guy can harass her with many ways that could "shed light" on her "racism". The thing is, even if there is no racism, the constant hint at it being there and a constant fear of appear not Democratic enough, will create a person who is so neurotic, so fearful, she will appear a "racist" when she is not. The psyche, when harassed, gets charged and sick, and reacts to clues and without thinking. Basically, constantly pushing the idea on someone that they don't liek black people even though it is not true will eventually make the pushed people loose mind and react in fear to any clue of a black person. The psyche reacts thusly because the person fears to appear wrong, and therefore the person braces against any possible display that could be interrpreted as the one the person does not feel and would never want to be believed to display. If harassment happens on the regular basis, the person gets to a state where she or he become crazed with fear of not being able to hold the fear of appearing wrong (the fear that may be misinterpreted as racism, instead of being a fear of not wanting to appear of what one is) and because the pressure is so great, the conscious mind breaks down and the person becomes a mind controlled slave. In other words, the person looses conscious control of oneself and becomes an unconscious entity...Very, extremely evil to do it a person, especially a good one, and this is what men do to women on a regular basis.
Here is some more on overusing the "racist" card and making a use of it improperly and against the law of this land. Let us say an African male wants to harass a Russian female. They share a household. He opts for using a race card and a television set for the conduction of that Nazistic operation. What does he do? Chooses times where poor female is at home and busy, and turns on Black shows to begin his work of evil spirit. The shows are well prepared: they are often full of deragatory slang and terms towards white people and white women especially. Also, as the black guy is watching the show he makes suggestive comments and hints at the white woman's fault...She is in the vicinity and gets harassed. At first, it is unconsciously. Then, as her attention gets caught because her unconscious just got harassed and disturbed, she becomes conscious of the accusations. This is when she feels insecure and wants to dissaprove the comments and accusations, and involves herself into an empty and fruitless pursuit: the pursuit is empty and fruitless because the accusations have no grounds to begin with, and therefore she stands no chance to win in this "war." She may have been born in another country, she may have been half or quarter black herself but she will be accused nonetheless simply because she is white and she is a female, that renders her helpless. The black male steals her time, personhood and may even have sex with her this way. Man's inhumanity to female is abundant.
This was a specific example of harassment in action. As I said earlier, clues are important and clues is what pushes poor female towards patriarchal goal. Like a rat in Skinner's maze...Special attention is paid to clues that prevent evolvement. These clues must be abundant for as a Homo Sapiens and a persecuted person, woman's mind and body desire change and solution and a salvation from pain and mistreatment. She attempts to evolve, attempts patriarchy crushes with its booted leg like one crushes a bug. Patriarchy fears woman's evolution above all else, because that would render the patriarchal power, powerless. So, when a female speaks her mind, she must be suppressed. She is termed "quarrelsome". Terms that threaten or promise or deliver societal condemnation are the best. I have mentioned in my earlier essays what price a woman who does not conform to society, must pay. Further, easier. Same principle. Any independent action on the part of the female, regardless of how proper it is, is termed some form of disruption of peace. If you are a woman and you are defending yourself: you are bittter. If you are a woman and you mind your business: you are afraid of people. If you are a woman and you are studying for your exam: you are a spinster bookworm. If you are a woman and are dating and enjoying yourself: you are a whore. If you are a woman and waiting to get married: you are a lesbian. If you are a woman who likes to have friends: you are a bisexual. There is no winning: the principle is that any action, anywhere, any place so long as it is taken by a woman and intitiates from a woman, is wrong.
Men also like to provide a temporary security feeling in a woman because it allows the victim to relx, to fatten up and to be tastier at the next harassment. As women relax and believe themselves to be safe (ha ha ha), men sneak up and ...harass them again! They devise an intricate system of psychological and mental torture, whereby women who trust or live or are human beings, die or get eaten alive. Patriarchy loves monstrers, hates humanity and despises itself. Catching women treacherously while they are busy doing work, that means while they are in the creativity, this means while they are in their unconsious, men say something or do something to make women react. Women constantly have their concentratrion broken because they are distrurbed and affected.
All of the normal growing processes are omitted. Distrubed. Destroyed. The genetics becomes escewed and sick. We become sick. Patriarchy destroys us from the inside. Like cancer.
And so, woman-lot, the lot of a great genius creature is: wrapping the baby doll into swaddling cloth, wrapping a baby patriarch into a swaddling cloth...Women go from playing with a Barbie and learning how Barbie seduces Ken to growing to become Barbies and seducing real-life Ken's. All the other growing processes are, of course either prohibted, omitted, or made believe to be unnecessary. Activites and processess such as playing sports, conversing, being buddies, running around.
As young girls play with Barbies, young males are trained to believe that harassing a woman is good for her - see, see she is learning! With this mind state, people will never change nor evolve but will devolve, because they are lacking a sense of guilt that can allow the recognition of fault and moving onto another stage. The fact that they are destroying all subtle psychological and mental nerve endings in a woman, sapping her strength and making her sick is not somehow distrubing, they with pride take a credit for that, highfiving one another! Well, if you provided women with education, proper nutrition and care, they would have learnt anyway. What if you were harassed by your parents and not provided with opportunities? Males, though, continue to sap woman's strength and energy. If she manages to survive, they grab her out of a time frame, her special frame of her mind, unique self and life and present her accomplishment that she has initiated and created there, as the "result" of their harassment of her. Very tricky and very smart. And very devious. But the FACT that she was doing it for thousands of days before that is totally and absolutely ignored. A woman, if unaware will fail to pereive the deceit. Surrounded on one side by fear, on the other by "encouragement" needless to say she will choose to give her credit away to the patriarch in exchange for some "recognition." It is a loosing position, you see, for patriarchy comes out winning in any case. They:
A. Just got another "reasurrance" that even their bad acts are good.
B. Just got an extended license to continue to harass a woman - it worked so fine last time, we shoul do it again! Why are you protesting it's bad - you said the same thing last time but it was good.
C. Got the credit for what not only they have not done, but for what they have attempted to undo and harm!
The solution? Call the stinking fish what is.
If someone harasses you, he harasses you.
End of story.
He has harassed you in relation to looking from the future,
he will be harassing you in relation to looking from the past,
he is harassing you in relation to looking in the now, the present.
Patriarch just never wants to face you in the present, because he WANTS TO CONTINUE TO HARASS YOU. He wants to harass you, hurt you, supress you, overcome you and appear a ...philantroppe!
Check out "Gyn/Ecology" by Mary Daly.

Schizophrenia has obvious symptoms

No recollection of the past.
Ultimate and untimely aggresiveness.
Strange judgments. Don't make sense. Much projection.
Claims. No reason.
Often accompanied by illusion of grandeur.
But the most important thing is that a schizophrenic has no sense of self and no memory of himself not his past. He does something, and forgets it. Then he is suprised by your response to him. He does not know what to make of it.
Schiziphrenics like to stare and look through you. They act strange and have inadequate reactions. They laugh when they should be crying and cry when they should be laughing. They are extremely jealous and low individuals. They hold no ideals and abhor any attempt at improvement on the part of another person.
Schizophrenics know no limits and have no morals. Like to animals, to them all is permiseable.
They will bark and ask you why they can't.
They will try to seduce a married woman or a man and wonder why it is not right.
They will bite a hand extended in friendship and question your anger at that.
They will hold you, caress you and profess loving you, and at the earliest and most convinient opportunity betray you. Then they will say it is no big deal but you are making it a big deal.
Schizophrenics are unable to recongnize development of society and live in a world of their imagination which is much more real to them than any reality. They are lost in that reality and perceive it as real. They make your life a living hell because they are, literally, crazy.

Patriarchy is the worst slave owning machine

Patriarchy prohibits protest against their actions by inflicting more pain. There is no escape because these senses of entitlement to woman's labor, time and person are at every level.
Psychology: fear, pain, manipulation
Approaches: behaviorism, psychoanalysis, unconsious
Behaviorism: Maslow, Skinner, more, more, more
Psychoanalysis: Freud
Unconsciou: Jung
There is more.
If anyone knows, know it and connect. Go further. Don't stay and die. Go and survive. Go and spread the word. Live. Don't die. Don''t change. Don't mutate. Help the others. Save yourself and her.

How patriarchy produces males like these: the two roommates

-"Can I have my item back?"
"You gave it to me"
-"No, I didn't. I lent it to you."
"You said you gave it to me." Stares at me, looming over me. His eyes are steady and he does not blink. He sways from left to right and right to left. His hands hang down. He starres at me.
-"I said you can keep it if you'd like, but it was meant out of politeness."
He takes a closer step to me, he looms over me, his eyes squint: you mean to say you've changed your mind?....
I open my mouth because I gasp for air. He looks right through me and not at me. How do I explain to a person who stands in my room and talks to me while I am in the kitchen, that he is disregarding normal boundaries and should not be standing in my room? How can I exlain to a person who exists the bathroom and stands there staring at me for ten minutes straight until I ask him what he want, and who goes into denial about the whole staring at me thing? He stares without blinking, like a mad animal, like an animal stares before jumping for the throat and strangling you. What do I say to an individual who denies having starred thusly, and says he "didn't do no nothing wrong". How do you explain to this individual that to stand and stare behind someone's back at what that person is writing, is impolite at least, and freaky at the most. To put it differently, this staring and this standing is an actual invasion of my privacy.
"No, I did not change my mind" I finally reply, after reflection, with a sigh. "I always wanted it back. You've misinterpreted me."
He straightenes his back and makes a face at me that promises pain. Like a kid, he thinks he can convince me to disbelieve my own words. "But yesterday you said I can have it."
"It's been a month by now and you have not returned to me my goddamn item, why did you not ask me if you coudl keep it for a longer time? Why didn't you?"
He stands straight and starts yelling at me that I have changed my mind and that I lie.
"You are a liar." I say to him. He doesn't like it.
He stops yelling and squints again. "Don't you ever call me that" he says and sharply turns on his heels. He walks with huge steps to the back, to his private room, to retrieve my item. He turns around as he walks and says: don't you ever call me that.
"You are that! You stand and lie straight to my face! You are obnoxious on top of that and intolerable. You have no sense of norm and decency."
He says very loudly, waking up our other roommate, through whose room he has to pass to arrive to his destination: I am warning you, Ms. Zakharov, don't call me a liar. Be careful, Dana. Be carefull.
"I will speak as I please, now give me my thing."
"Be carefull, I am warning you" I continue to hear threats.
He comes out and shoves the curtain into my hands. Just like that. He repeats to me that I should be carefull. I look at him and feel the cold. I also feel his eyes, they are empty, empty of humanity, empty of feeling, empty of being, empty of everything. He looks like a zombie, and not Rob. I say to him: you are threatening me. He says "that's enough, Dana" as if I was a child. Then I remember how my friend was spoken to by her supposed friend, very similar. I recall the story in all details. The friend who spoke was a guy, and she, she was a girl. He was nice until they had a contention. That is, until he did not have to be tested. And then he went full force and all the way. All friendship went to hell when he needed something she had. It wasn't even something significant. When she fought back, naturally, first out of fear, and then out of reaction, and hurt, he got very upset and started to threaten her very similarly. She used to bring me along as a buffer during those times. I got into fights with him a few times. I wanted to protect because any friend who is good and can protect should protect another friend who is good and needs protection. During those times, he hated me so much I thought he would kill both me and my friend.
So, "that's enough, Dana" as he exists down the stairs with his gangly mid-Western walk, turning around to look at my face. He repeats his warning with this strange, quite voice, looking at me deeplym yet somehow, through me. One may be led to believe he is not joking. I loose my temper and yell that he will find his shit thrown out if he continues talking to me so disrespectfully. I close the door. He runs upstairs and opens the door. I am sitting and reading my book, trying to calm down. He stares at me with hatred and threatens again, then he pauses, now he threatens to go to court with me. I say that's just fine.
At least the pretense of liking this beast is now gone. I could not stand the person after the incident at the fence. He was horrible to me, horrendous, obnoxious, crude and although he did help me some then, the complex of inferiority that I grew is slowly reducing only now, months later...I feel a thousand and one times relieved now that I don't have to like the beast.
The beast is revealed.
The beast is yet another male who mocks and humilates a female that was forced to let him in to survive, the rent issue in turn created by the ghostly and beastly patriarchy. And he takes advantage of that need by gaining on her needines and sensitivity, through using all of the tricks of patriarchy to harass the psyche as I've outlined previously.
He is a beast.
He hates himself for being such a looser but who cares for his motivation: in the end, it is the choices that we make that make us or unmake us.

THE SECOND ROOMMATE:
The other one is even weirder. He constantly sexually harasses me. Subtly. The time will come when he will prove himself a friend but nonetheless, one doubts his motivation and one doubts his sanity.
He stares at me too. But with a different twist. The common trait of both is harassment of my person, regardless of the indicated choice to be otherwise treated. He comes out of the bathroom after the shower and tries to loose his towel on his way to his room. I can see his naked torso. He tries to accentuate the smell of his body wash: coincidentally, it is the same as mine. He grabs my cell phone when it rings to give it to me. He puts things I left out where he thinks I would like them. Consequently, I cannot find anything. He stares at me and pretends he was looking elsewhere when I look up to catch him. When I am in my room, he suddenly yells out my name or yells out to me, making me jump off my chair, making my heart race and making me loose my train of thought...My thought is important, I do not want nor need to be associating with him and my work requires me to be in depth, not on the surface. When he washes his own dishes he acts as if he is doing ME a favor. He bangs them and throws them into the sink. He used to take all my three dishes and dirty them, not bothering to wash them after. He does something and checks for my reaction, it is as if he is unable to tell what is right and what is wrong without my reaction. He has no brain of his own. He constantly stands in such a way as to demonstrate his "masculinity" to me. When I get caught off guard, I blush. He often tries to stick his penis in my field of vision. He looks very satisfied. He started to immitate the gait of the other roommate because he thinks I like him... It is pathetic to watch this black guy immitate this mid-Western bozo redneck with a heavy accent. He thinks he is sexy. He contantly puts on black television and waits for my reaction. I was never a racist in my life until I started to get harassed and told why I should at in any way. This is America. Live and let live. Don't live off me.
He does not understand why I hide my cups and dishes now. He thinks I am mean. I am not his mommy nor his servant. I will not clean after him.

HOW MALES HARASS WOMEN ON A FAULTY ASSUMPTION OF "ENERGY"

If you are a woman and ever felt drained, suddenly upset, irrationally angry or frustrated, what's going on? A very simple thing is going on.


You are being abused. Yes, you will say, but he is not hitting me nor is he raising his voice at me. Woman, where have you been that after psychology has been around for so long you still fail to realize how many ways to psychologically torture someone are there? The main source of what a male calls "energy" means, to boyz' club, is doing sadistic things to you and torturing you. When you get upset, they get happy. Your tears, your pain, your sickness, and your irritation are called "energy" by them. You see, when you get upset, you get muddy headed, you can't think clearly and you can't study or progress. This is when the male gains the time on you and progresses. He also enjoys psychological, emotional and spiritual suffering of a woman.


How does he (the male) make you upset?
Why?...



BEWARE OF A POISONOUS ENEMY LURKING IN THE LIGHT


BEWARE OF A DANGEROUS ENEMY LURKING IN THE LIGHT









Everyone agrees that a woman's role is constructed and a constrictin one. Much of what is "expected" of us is neither good for the species, nor is good for individuals. It is, simply and plainly put, venomous to us and to our psyche. But, since there is a societal judgment, the so called "public opinion" that stands on guard with flaming sword, ready to crucify any female who dares to live her destiny and go against the "rules", females do what is actually not good. God forbid it would be a wrong act that they do and still with the advise of a male! If one is a female, one can never be right, one is always only wrong. So, a female learns to be always on the watch out, on the look out and fear to violate some societal prohibition. She becomes neurotic and psychopathic. Male, unfortunately, is not concerned with the well being of the species but is concerned with the well being of his wallet and the precisous self...What is the punishment for that prohibition that a woman breaks?Loosing one's job, loosing the respect, being talked about. Every move a female makes is analyzed under the microscope - this was not sexy, this was not right, this was rude. Such standards as rudeness, sweetness, agreeablness are applied to a woman where they are not applied to a man. Why not? A woman can err in anything, even a breath of air she takes, and a man can only err in some of his actions? Certainly, thusly preoccupied female is unable to progress and evolve further. Men is able to do whatever he pleases and to received all credit and pleasure that he wants.
Society justifies adultery when it comes to a man.
Society justifies his lowly behavior.
Society even justifies him paying less money to a female for the job she does that is equal, and often greater than male's. The result of double standards and a continuous and insistent politics of harassment of the female, is abuse of the female and her bad position, dissagreeble nature of the gender relationships and an unfortunate living conditions for all. This is natural to expect because when a man, who is insignificant, wants to gain power by means that are not proper, he will do it by attacking a female. And since she trusts him and it is hard for her to conceive of anything he does as bad, he can easily get away with all he does for a while, until he establishes the imbalance of powers. And once the system is set up, all else follows. From then on, all he really has to do it to act when she does or says something as if she could be violating one of the social laws. The fear of retribution on the part of the society that comes in the form of a snap judgment, is mighty and powerfully fearful. The man further continues to narrow her sphere of influence by attacking absolutely neutral behaviors on her part as the bad ones. From making her a non-threat, he makes her into a pathetic supplicant. It is irrelevant is she is right or wrong, because all that counts is that SOMEONE, ANYONE has judged her behavior to be wrong. Since a woman has been given less wieght in society, she and her word are insignificant and do not count lest she is supported by a male witness or is seconded by someone. And any word said against a female, will be pronounced and counted against her. The woman then is certainly fearful to speak. She becomes closed in. The man further continues to harass her. He intensifies his attack and now he uses a different technique - he makes sharp noises, drops objects, and always does something that is bound to unstabilize her psyche when she is in peace or is calm or is resting. By doing that he makes her psyche neurotic and she comes to believe there is no safe place in the world. She is unable to think or function. She is a complete animal by then, anything can be done to her and said to her. She is helpless because even the very words the male created, and decontructs them at will.
The sadism that is practised, the intentional hurting of human beings for the sake of emotional or psychic pleasure, is what accompanies that hurting. The gain, the pursuit of gain, is accomplished by draining a woman of her life force as one would a water balloon. The justification of man's actions is set up in the system, the excuses like: boys will be boys, he really did not mean that, he is angry, he is a man after all, you are exagerrating and being emotional, are an aid to a main policy that states that a man is always right and a man can do no wrong. The quality of a man arising out of this torturuous relationship will doubtfully be good also. But most importantly, the excuses gallore provide a legalized slavery for any able bodied male. A female is a commodity to be touched, spoken to, abused, harassed, stolen from and manipulated.
People will say - don't allow the abuse. Well, first of all, how not to allow it if there are no weapons to fight with? And the second point is that what's important is not to have the impulse to hurt or to use for own gain. That impulse existing allows all of us to live in a sick society. This society is a society of psychopaths and sociopaths. The point is not to have weapons to protect oneself from abuse. The point is in not living with someone who wants to vampire off of you. What life is that if you know any male wants to drain you? That's not a life for a human.
Man creates fear in a woman by stirring her ancient and abused psyche. He constantly threatenes to inflict violence against her. He will not stop. He justifies that with future gain he will make.
Improper spiritual entry will never be erased.
The beginning that requires blood and a conscious and fully self-aware and aware of its doing, vice breeding, in no beginning. What can possibly justifies a killing and draining of innocent young women?
A man steals. He steals her time, her energy, her life force, her energy, her life, her youth, her strength.
Patriarchy teaches boys to speak to any woman as if she has no history, no existence but outside the immediate moment where some boy catches her in, no personality and no life. Man has no desire to know a woman is alive and human. He wants to believe she is a resource and a arising out of the black hole. American male, uneducated and stupid, stupified by cheap availability of all this magick mambo-jumbo feels himself entitled to woman's life.
No one stops him.
No one protects. No one says don't kill these innocent people by thousands each day. How come when a woman speaks of abuse, she is deconstructed? Are abuses I have listed before and now so miniscule, so irrelevant and so non-existant that they could be rationalized away? Is the blood of women less precious than the blood of those who have died in war on Iraq? Is our struggle for decent living not as relevant as a struggle of Americans during Revolution against England?