Unsafe New York: Part Eighteen

PATRIARCHY MAKES WOMEN ABANDON THEIR OWN BODY OR HOW PATRIARCHY BREEDS DELIBERATE MENTAL ILLNESS AND HATRED BETWEEN THE GENDERS:
As I watched myself turn a gay man, I thought to myself, what is it that men hate so much about women, that they make our very existence in our own bodies impossible? The things you read about on this blog and at the other one, the things I've written down, the things Betty Friedan spole about, the things Mary Daly spoke about, the things history speaks about are only a few examples. I turned a different gender and turned a gay man because patriarchy makes it impossible to be a woman. I see how many women become lesbian from a lack of choice. This for them becomes the only resort from pain, from nightmare of conitnuous pain, oppression and utter disregard of them as PEOPLE.
God, this is your creature, I think to myself as I watch the utter hatred which man pours upon a woman. This person who would rather fuck another guy up the asshole than be with a woman? Why does he hate a woman so much? Why does a woman justify a hate of herself? I do not want to join in, and no one can tell me it is bad to love myself or defend myself. None of the good qualities we have are sufficient? They do not want to help us evolve, lend a helpful hand but only hurt, hurt, hurt. A guy that wants another guy to have a vagina but somehow totally disregards the fact the we, women, have vaginas? A creature that drowns us, beats us, starves us, purposefully does not teach us, creates confusion in our minds? And women comply and justify? Where is the self respect? Do they live in their own bodies or do they live in the mind and descend into the bodies only occasionally? Sadism of patriarchy goes far.
I turned gay man and started hating my own gender.
The transguys in my group cannot mention the word "female" without tears on their eyes. I attent a few groups and this is a case in all. ALL, each and every one of them swore that if life was different for women, they would have never, ever done such fucking craziness as take fucking Testosterone! Being chemically dependent on a drug all your life! It's like being a heroine addicts! And breast removal? And penis making? It is not that transguy CHOOSES, he resorts to this act as no other action policy is suffcient to stop the patriarchal abuse and hatred. When guys around you fuck one another, and hate you and dress up like chicks, you are basically being pushed off your most intimate territory - your fucking body!!! The massive exodus of women from female gender is not a sign to a society that it has massively failed? Such hatred of a natural woman but adoration of all the lowest qualities in an artifical one: lust, stupidity, idiocy, greed, lunacy, envy? You want to tell me that this creature, the man is superior to me and is given superior strength? You want to tell me it makes sense in the sense of religion? In the light of reason? In the light of humanity?...
He does the opposite of what pleases God. And in the sense of justice? He perverts the meaning of it. And in which way does it make sense? I don't know, you tell me. But somebody help me before I die, someone please develop consicousness and push that asshole out of my body. I am tired. I need to be me. I don't want to see my sisters lining up to a clinic to get testosterone. I want to see more schools, more education and a shift of attention to women as the future ones who need development and restructuring of an oppressive, slave system of thousands years old. I want more sports and more books, better food, no hormones in the food, no advertisements, no making money off innocent children. No teaching children to hate their own bodies and no bad mouthing each other and oneself. If all the conditions were met, these women would naturally develop to be strong and smart, without breast mutilation and testosterone injection.
But this man is devious. He is devilish. He has an unholy alliance with the Devil and he receives his due for his altar service. The "creature of God" has done so much damage, while not forgetting to cover his wonderful acts of genocide and murder by a banner "it says it in the Bible." How is male different form a Jihadist who says that to kill to promote Islam - Jihad, is a Koran's injuction? And it is a Christian-Judeo injuction to keep woman as designated scape goat?!!
Why do I always have to downplay my qualites? I am smart, talented, abused, disadvantaged, taken advantage of, smart and highly aesthetical person who desires only good and harmonious existence. What is my fault, oh Patriarchy?
BUT THE INTERESTING THING, THAT INSTEAD OF PREVENTING THE TURN OF EVENTS, PATRIARCHY OPERATES ON LIVE INDIVIDUALS WITHOUT EVEN COMMON SEDATIVE. THEY LITERALLY ATTEMPT TO ABORT YOU WHILE YOU ARE ALIVE.
OH, THEY SEEM TO SAY: SO YOU TURNED THIS OR THAT BECAUSE OF US? OK, WE WILL TURN YOU BACK! AND AN ALREADY MADE INDIVIDUAL, IF SHE IS A FEMALE, IS WASHED BACK AND FORTH, BEATEN UP, HUMILIATED AND CONSTANTLY MOLDED AND MENDED. AS IF ANYONE, BUT ANYONE HAD A RIGHT TO DARE TO DICTATE TO THIS IS EVEN WORSE, TO DECIDE FOR AN ADULT INDIVIDUAL WHAT SHE SHOULD DO!
Transexual, transgender- is like AIDS. It is incurable, it is forever for this lifetime, it is that's it. Yes, potentially it could have been prevented. Yes, it is a diversion. Yes, it is a result of an order going not properly and not in the proper direction, but once it goes, it is it. The THEORY is different from ACTUALITY. In theory, all is possible, in reality, it has happened already.
IT IS. And because women are only taught to receive and to live it, they never learn to question sufficiently the reality they live. The accept. And that's the problem. There is where they need to stop and think.
And for the future, if you want to change life, then you change the way you approach a half, if not more than of a human race. And for now, divest yourself from an usurped kingly right and a self proclaimed authority you've decided to have over female gender. Hiding behind your Bible? And the terrorist behind his Koran? Oh, how many excuses just to allow men to vampirically live off women. Not true? Go back and observe. Use a true measure, not the lying, self deceiving mechanism you've created. Let us sit in open counsel and reason. But you have a tons of excuses, not unlike a professional Sophist as to why we should not, right?